i pray you will

hey guys

how are you all?

been a while, i went on vacation and it was fun.

moving right along


i'm not sure what i wanna talk about today .. i guess i want to remind everyone that we all have plenty of choices

i wish i can explain to you exactly what i mean, i wish i can tell you guys what experience i'm going through to prove this but i seriously can't blog about it ..

but i do wanna talk about choices a bit more

nothing in life is forced upon you, not if you're an adult. if you're an adult you accept whatever it is that comes your way and take responsibility for it

now i know many of us are reliant on our parents here and that doesn't deprive you of choice in anyway, but you just gotta make sure you ain't holding back from something you really want

i want you to stop right now, and think about something you really want..i'll do it too

right now, (other than typing this) i'm thinking of 2 things i really want

1 thing i wish i could have

and another thing i truly miss

and as i realize that i'm wishing and missing  2 things, i also realize that it is my decision to not step forward thats stopping me from getting what im wishing for and what im missing

we all claim we've been left, and treated badly .. and yeh, i suppose we've all been treated unfairly at some point

but in some twisted way, that was partly related to a decision you made, a choice you made


not every choice you make is pleasant

i'm missing and wishing for something because this is the position i choose to be in, because i know moving forward may hurt even more, so this is what's safe for me

but i admit it. i'm afraid

and i don't want you to be afraid

i know it doesnt sound strong since i'm not applying my own words, i hope i dont sound too self-contradictory but do go after what you want.

i pray you will.

until next time