i'm back?

yo

how are you guys doing?

i'm back yes.

so um i said i'll be back eventually and i am now because i have a few things i do wanna talk about

first thing:

summer. my summer sucked. big time. i was a big emotional wreck and i felt like crap most of the time but hey at least it's over.

second thing:

i'm turning 20 in 13 days. ew. i'm old.

third thing:

i'm back because i'm supposed to be studying but i'm too lazy ok?

fourth and most importantly:

the ACTUAL topic i want to talk about. if you're a good person does that automatically mean good things will happen to you? now i know the obvious answer to that is no but these are my findings so far

now i know someone and she's good in every way. she's straightforward, doesn't lie and perfect in every sense of the word. but for some reason...bad things happen to her

and then you have me, i'm no angel. i've lied before, i've done some things i regret and i am in no way perfect or even close to it. but i have good things going on for me sometimes.

i dont wanna be a jinx on myself or anything but we are always taught to believe that what goes around comes around and while that's true and i have actual examples of that, sometimes life doesn't work that way. sometimes you do bad things and you get away with it.

so where does this leave us? would you do something bad knowing you'd get away with it? is the fear of being caught the only factor that stops you from actually doing something bad? if your answer is yes, ask yourself..are you a good person?

until next time

my final post

hey everyone

the title of this post kinda gives away what i'm about to say

in the past couple of weeks i've been thinking and i realized that i truly have expressed myself about many things on this blog and i loved doing it, and it is with this realization that i have come to this decision

i really don't have much left to say except thank you to every loyal reader who followed me on each post, and everyone who shared my posts with their friends through twitter, facebook and so on... i really enjoyed this experience and i hope i managed to write about things that you guys can relate to and idk, maybe one of my posts made you smile a little, if it did well then .. mission accomplished (:

i'm gonna be asked this question a lot, why are you closing your blog?

the truth of the matter is i could sit here and give you a list of reasons why but the reality is i just feel like for now i've reached a point where i can safely say blogging was a great experience and its time to take a break

i won't go off and say i'm never gonna blog again, maybe someday i will, for the time being i'll keep this blog open but i'm gonna close it in a couple of days, all the posts will still be saved though so that reassures me

i hope this decision doesn't disappoint anyone and don't worry, i'll still be around everywhere hehe

until next time? maybe someday ;)

words that inspire me

hey everyone

how are you?

doing well i hope

i enjoy reading and i enjoy writing, but it takes a lot to get me in that right state of mind, in which i can write properly (btw, my blogging isn't me writing properly, it's just me blabbing), so other than the sound of james blunt's voice, there are some really nice quotes that put me in that state, if you guys have me on instagram you'll see some of the pictures of the iphone notepad i post with beautiful words .. now i mainly get these quotes from this app i have on my iphone, i like reading quotes, and not those lame cheesy teenage quotes which are just constantly repeated, i like reading strong words that really carry meaning with them

so here are a couple of quotes that really speak to me, i hope they do the same to you

• the nearer the dawn the darker the night - henry wadsworth longfellow, if you're having one of those days where you feel like the whole world is caving it .. your dawn is closer trust me
• just when the caterpillar thought life was over, it became a butterfly - source unknown if you ever feel like you're stuck in something miserable, believe me, beauty awaits you at the end of that line
• the finest kind of friendship is between people who expect a great deal of each other but never ask it - sylvia brenner. in other words guys, keep all your expectations to yourself, a true friend would live up to them without you having to say a thing, and if a friend doesn't do that .. they were never your friend
• change hurts. it makes people insecure, confused, and angry. people want things to be the same as they've always been because that makes life easier. but if you're a leader, you can't let your people hang on to the past-  richard marcinko. so guess what boys and girls? things change every single day, and if you dwell too much in the past, you'll just mentally live there and in today's world all you'll be is a zombie
• a wise man can see more from the bottom of a well than a fool can from a mountain top - source unknown. it doesn't matter where you are, with a golden mind you can utilize it wherever you are.

and finally, one of my personal favorites, its a bit of a long one but here it is

"i've continued to recognize the power individuals have to change virtually anything and everything in their lives in an instant. i've learned that the resources we need to turn our dreams into reality are within us, merely waiting for the day when we decide to wake up and claim our birthright." anthony robbins

so here's what i have to say to each and every reader

wake up and claim your birthright, we are all born brilliant, go ahead and claim that brilliance and turn yourself into something extraordinary, no matter who tries to make you feel like you're not.

until next time

10 people that need to seriously shut up

hey guys

how are you all??

hope you're all doing well!

now i realized my most popular posts are the ones that involve me listing stuff, so here's one for you guys!

10 people that need to seriously shut up (and this is not in order of importance or relevance, they all equally need to shut up for an equal amount of time because they're all equally annoying)

1) twilight fans - no offense if you are one, actually it'll be hard not to take offense, but seriously, shut up. the whole story is stupid and you're just ugh.

2) emo people - sometimes i feel like i am one which makes me disgusted so i shake it off. emo people need to seriously shut the hell up, your desperate pleas for attention are so pathetic and cutting yourself just to "get away from it all" is actually a way for you to be put in the picture because you're desperately seeking all forms of attention

3) girls who go like "omg, he won't leave me alone".. hmm maybe he's not leaving you alone because you're easier to get than 1+1

4) guys who are all macho, like "oh yeh baby i run the show around here". the only show you run brother is the show playing around in that tiny little head of yours. wake up and stop being so damn macho

5) guys who think its not masculine to be straight and forward about their emotions. yeh im gonna get a lot of crap about this, but feelings exist in humans regardless of gender, i'm not saying act like a cry baby i'm saying own up to what you feel

6) girls who feel the need to tell the whole world they're in a bad mood. look sweetheart, if you were in any remote way even CLOSE to being important, you'd have people who care about you to talk to when you're in a bad mood. please don't tell the whole world you're in a bad mood so they can ask you what's wrong, we seriously don't care, and when we do ask its only because we think you're pathetic and we wanna laugh at you. all im saying is if you're upset, go talk to the people who care about you. dont tell the whole world

7) people who think they're good at something when in actual fact, they suck at it. like i hate people who dont acknowledge that they're simply BAD at something. there's no shame in it, no body's perfect, and if you're not good at this particular thing you're probably good at something else, stop wasting your time doing something thats clearly not right for you

8) people who are quick to pass judgment on others and refuse to accept one criticism about their lives from others. if you're one of these people. YOU'RE A LIVING DOUBLE STANDARD GET OUT OF MY BLOG.

9) people who envy others on what they have, i wont even comment, its self-explanatory.

and finallyyyyyyyyy

10) nicki minaj. i hate her.

until next time!

help make a difference!

hey guys

what upppppppppppp

how are you all

good?

good!

i'm alright.

actually

i'm not sure i am .. see i saw a video yesterday, and i'm sure many of you may have heard about it or saw it

in case you didnt, please take a minute .. or 30 minutes, and watch this video, PLEASE!!!

its about joseph kony, a heartless criminal who has enslaved over 30000 children!!

Click here

now if you dont wanna watch this fine, i'll brief you about it

we were all children at some point

if you're a boy, imagine being forced into the army and taught to kill at such a young age

if you're a girl...and this hurts me on so many levels, imagine being victim to sexual abuse and torture before you even get your first period

i dont get millions of views but god i cant sit back and watch these children get tortured knowing that our voice has the capability to DO SOMETHING

it's not just my voice, its yours if you watch the video and pass it along to your friends!! and it wont cost you a single thing

maybe it'll cost you your time, but seriously, god has blessed you with great times as a child, surely you can give up a few moments of that time and help those children who have not had one single moment in time as theirs to enjoy ..

watch the video please. spread awareness, these are innocent lives here, please.

DO SOMETHING

if you're interested in learning more, go on this website as well.

bless your hearts, and may god help those children.

until next time

criteria for a good day

hey guys

how are you all doing?
i didn't ask that in a long time. i'm so self-absorbed i'm sorry, i want to know how you're all doing i really do.

so .. i'm aware i won't get an answer, but i am concerned about your well-being

moving on

today i wanna talk about something really simple

what makes a good day, a good day?

like you know we have good days then we have bad days

but the definition is always different

for me a good day goes as follows:

1) i wake up when i want

2) i stay in bed a good 2 hours before i actually get up

3) my hair looks good (not when i get out of bed though thats just asking too much lol)

4) i pick out a nice outfit to wear

5) i have at least one interesting conversation with someone i like

6) i do something useful with my day, like go to work for example

7) i eat something delicious but non-fattening (i'm still searching for such a meal to exist)

8) i laugh a lot

now as you can see, it's very hard to have all those things in one day, and some of them are down right impossible (every good meal is fattening)

but like the point is, if you take each single one, they're actually pretty small things, its when they're combined thats when they seem great

and thats the point i'm trying to prove here, its the small things that count

you didnt see me mentioning up there that i need 5 tonnes of gold delivered to my house for it to be a good day

dont get me wrong, if you're planning to send me a tonne of gold i'd welcome it with open arms but like its not something i need you know?

(seriously though, gold, yes, go ahead)

hehe im just kidding

but like you get my point right? small things do make us happy, but only if we learn to appreciate them when they come

if one day i got to have at least one of those things on the list, i'd call it a good day!

now you should do the same, think of a list of things that make it a good day for you and try to see how many items on that list you can check off every day! you'll find that your days will be a lot brighter from here on!

alright, so let me do this

today i can cross out the following items because they actually happened:

1) my hair looks good

2) i picked out an outfit i liked

3) i had an interesting conversation with someone i like

4) i laughed a lot

there you go! 4 out of 8! today was a good day ladies and gentlemen, and how was yours?

let me know!

until next time

have you ever

hey guys

so this post will be more about you guys and less about me

i love feedback and i've been getting a lot of it on twitter, i wish to get more of it here, on my actual blog. so if you're reading this and you feel like joining me, i'd love it if you'd reply here and you know you can reply to my twitter if you want, whatever makes you comfortable.

so i'm gonna ask a series of questions and i want you guys to answer

here we go:

1) have you ever let go of something you should have held on to, and if yes what was your reason of letting go?

2) have you ever regretted something and forced yourself to move on, if yes why did you do it in the first place?

3) have you ever been good to someone without any return in exchange, think carefully.

4) have you ever been so upset sometimes that you questioned your reason for living?

5) have you ever been so happy once that you felt like nothing in the world can ever upset you again, if yes how long did that last?

6) have you ever felt different feelings towards someone and you simply weren't sure why they are a part of your life to begin with?

7) have you ever asked yourself, are you truly happy?

8) have you ever wondered what your purpose in life is, or are you just seeing where it takes you?

9) have you ever had a dream, and been told it's impossible?

10) and finally, have you ever mentioned my blog to a friend? hehe

i'd love to know how you guys feel about all these questions, obviously you don't have to answer anything if you don't want to, you can answer a few, you can answer just one even, it's entirely up to you, but i love getting to know what people think and i just think it's a way for us to get to know each other better since you guys know me pretty well by now!

until next time

i pray you will

hey guys

how are you all?

been a while, i went on vacation and it was fun.

moving right along


i'm not sure what i wanna talk about today .. i guess i want to remind everyone that we all have plenty of choices

i wish i can explain to you exactly what i mean, i wish i can tell you guys what experience i'm going through to prove this but i seriously can't blog about it ..

but i do wanna talk about choices a bit more

nothing in life is forced upon you, not if you're an adult. if you're an adult you accept whatever it is that comes your way and take responsibility for it

now i know many of us are reliant on our parents here and that doesn't deprive you of choice in anyway, but you just gotta make sure you ain't holding back from something you really want

i want you to stop right now, and think about something you really want..i'll do it too

right now, (other than typing this) i'm thinking of 2 things i really want

1 thing i wish i could have

and another thing i truly miss

and as i realize that i'm wishing and missing  2 things, i also realize that it is my decision to not step forward thats stopping me from getting what im wishing for and what im missing

we all claim we've been left, and treated badly .. and yeh, i suppose we've all been treated unfairly at some point

but in some twisted way, that was partly related to a decision you made, a choice you made


not every choice you make is pleasant

i'm missing and wishing for something because this is the position i choose to be in, because i know moving forward may hurt even more, so this is what's safe for me

but i admit it. i'm afraid

and i don't want you to be afraid

i know it doesnt sound strong since i'm not applying my own words, i hope i dont sound too self-contradictory but do go after what you want.

i pray you will.

until next time

10 things to do when you're sick

hey guys

so i'm like really sick

fever, sore throat, the whole package

and i'm loving it

ew not really i'm dreading it

because normally i'd be out on a sunday, its the beginning of a new week and i have things to do but i cant get around to doing anything because i'm sick. so i thought of coming up with a list of things to do when i'm sick, and if you're sick, or if you're coming down with something, or if you're not sick but lets face it we all get sick eventually, unless you're satan, this post will help you a lot.

1) create a blog, and blog about things to do when you're sick, since thats what im doing now.

2) if you have a fever and a sore throat, make sure you drink lots of fluids, i know this isn't something new but like, i have to include something actually beneficial for you guys to do since the rest of this list will be pretty much useless hehe

3) listen to toxic by britney spears, wanna know why? because the idea of britney wanting to get it on with someone who's toxic makes me feel better about myself

4) laugh at your friends and family who are stuck at college, school or work, basically laugh at people who are busy doing productive things in their day and you're just home...doing nothing.

5) ponder about how you got sick in the first place, was it because you were dumb enough to take a shower and leave your house with wet hair last friday morning on your way to work, or did you pick it up from someone, if so, read the next item on the list.

6) if you picked it up from someone, call them at 3:15 am and whisper "don't think just coz you threw me away at someone i wont come back and get you, sincerely the flu"

7) constantly tell everyone that you're fine, using your extra sick voice, that way everyone will feel sorry for you and make you delicious foods and bring things all the way to you instead of you having to get up and move around and get your body active

8) sing, because lets face it, our singing voice gets so much better when we're sick, and if possible, get a record deal

9) watch lame chick flicks on mbc 2 and mbc max

10) and finally, screw up the timing of your meds so you don't get better and get stuck with these 10 lovely things to do all over again

lol on a more serious note, i really don't enjoy being sick at all, i hope i feel better so if you may, wish me well

also i want to thank sara for making me delicious dinner yesterday and bringing it over, i love you!

and what else?

did i mention i hate being sick??
yep i think i may have.

right.

ok then!

until next time

what to do on valentines day

hey guys

so i know valentines day is over but like

i've been thinking

i know that most people out there, especially in our culture don't actually spend valentines day with their "love" or maybe they do and i'm stupid haha

but idk, based on my social circle not many people did anything special on valentines day

and thats ok you know like its not something i strongly believe we should celebrate BUT it can be a nice event to acknowledge, because its an event that sends out a positive message of love and togetherness, so for one thing, if you're out there hating on valentines day because you're like oh if i love someone i should tell them everyday not just that day..

let me respond to you if you have that belief.

LISTEN UP. ok, yeh nobody asked you to not tell your loved one in the 365 days of the year that you love them. TELL THEM, but valentines day is an internationally acknowledged phenomena and hey MAYBE your loved one wants to be a part of that!!!!!!!!!!! so suck it up and be thankful you have someone who wants to celebrate this joyous day with you

now for the rest of you who, like me, were super alone that day. lol. there are other ways to have fun!

yes there are
yes there are
yes there are
yes there are


..sorry i was just shaking off the cynic in me.

i spent my valentines day, celebrating it with someone i do love, my best friend! nahla, this is a "shout-out" for you?, i put quote marks because i think you have to be famous for your shout-out to seem cool. and well..i'm lame lol. anyway, we skyped and took lame pictures of each other and you know i was spending it with someone who made me laugh, and that's one way to spend it.

i actually didn't think i'd laugh at all that day because i thought i'd be just sitting home feeling miserable, its what i told everyone at least but the reality is...

you need to remind yourself that you are loved, and the way you do this is by interacting with those who make you feel loved. they don't have to say it word for word, although that would be nice too. but when someone gives you their time...they're giving you a part of their life that they can never go back to, so learn to appreciate those people

and always love.

i know i'm late right now but i guess it's better late than never, happy valentines day, and thank you for reading my blog posts! i love you guys for taking the time out of your lives to read what i have to say.

until next time

10 reasons why i hate people

hey guys

been a while i know

sorry

cutting to the chase now.

10 reasons why i hate people

call me a cynic, do whatever, this is the truth and im just expressing it.

1) people lie. and that's just disgusting, we all do it, you know this, i know this, and its a terrible habit but it makes me hate people

2) everyone secretly enjoys watching other people fail. don't sit around and act like some angel, we all know you enjoyed another person's failure at some point in your life

3) people like to say i told you so. see when i make a mistake, and often i do, i'm sitting there feeling like crap and like the whole world is caving in, and when my only consolation is that i'm not alone, some IDIOT walks in and tells me ... oh i told you so. thanks, in my time of misery i do need someone telling me i messed up and that they know better, thanks a lot.

4) they SHUN others who are different. and this bothers me more than you can know. different is AMAZING yet people frown on it, why? because they're intimidated by brilliance.

5) they value material objects more than sentimental objects. so basically it's more important to have a 745023597609275690876258907690257860258 dollar bag or a 276902572580956780295767258976029762905 dollar car, than it is to have 1 true friend.

6) they like flaunting whatever they have. this relates to the earlier point, when they have a 745023597609275690876258907690257860258 dollar bag or a 276902572580956780295767258976029762905 dollar car, they like to say hey i have a 745023597609275690876258907690257860258 dollar bag or a 276902572580956780295767258976029762905 dollar car (sorry if these numbers are giving you a headache, if it helps i didnt actually read them i just attacked my keyboards out of the fury i have towards these people)

7)they're stupid, most of the time. self-explanatory. and if you need me to explain this then you're stupid and you're one of the people i'm making this list about. go away.

8) they took the meaning of love, shattered it into bits and pieces, and threw these bits and pieces across a park for all the birds to come and SHIT on them. yes thats right, they devalued love in an unbelievable way.

9) they think fitting in is the most important aspect in life, and that success, and being cultured and being educated isn't as important, so they change who they are and if social protocol states that they give up important things like working hard and PARTY instead, guess what they do? they party instead. LIKE IDIOTS. leading us back to point number 7

10) finally, i hate people because at the end of the day i am a person myself, and i don't have all those qualities but i may have some, and that makes me hate me, because it's in our nature to be this way...and that sucks.

until next time

disclaimer: i'm actually nice, but i'm just trying to point out things that i think most of you guys already know, i hope when you go down this list you find that actually pretty much everything i said is true and i'm not meaning to offend anyone.

its true when they say...

hey guys

its been a while

5 days?

how are you all!
good i hope

now we hear a lot of expressions in our daily lives and the fact is, behind each and every common expression is a reason why it's so common, and a reason why it flows around

it takes something very powerful and convincing for everyone to believe it and spread it around, that's why not everything is an expression, and the expressions out there are usually known by most people (the good ones) and the expression i'm gonna talk about today is

"what goes around comes around"

now that is seriously the truest piece of truth in the world

what goes around DOES come back around

and i will tell you a story i heard today from my mum..

it's not fictional or anything

now my mum's family lives in saudi arabia so she spent some of her life there, when she married my dad she had to move to kuwait and start a whole new life here, and transition into marriage life with nobody beside her

this was difficult but she did it, gracefully and beautifully

(i love my mum, raise your hand if you do too)

*stops to raise hand*

now she made a friend here, a friend she truly needed...

one day, her friend offered that they start a business together and mum agreed.. she trusted her

i won't get into the details but it ends with this woman ripping my mum off

my mum was hurt, but she realized she won't let money ruin her friendship

after all we can all agree that money can be a sensitive topic between friends, regardless of how close, correct?

so, mum looks the other way, and this woman comes to her once again in dire need of financial help, and my mum comes to her rescue once more

now let me stop here and tell you this, if you're gonna think of my mum as naive or any of these things, then dont even go on reading this. put yourself in her position and you'll know how she felt, she is a kind woman and that's nothing to be looked down upon for.

once more, the woman acted the fraud.

this is where my mum learnt.

when she told this to the circle of friends she was in, they all knew about the kind of woman that fraud was and that she ripped off many other people too

now this was 30 years ago.

today

on this day

probably tomorrow too and the day after

this woman's health is deteriorating, given that she's the same age as my mum and her circle of friends (ie not that old)

now i'm not happy that this woman's health condition is bad, but at the same time she ripped off so many people, and this is karma biting her in the butt.

so this is the moral of the story

life will hand you things that can be so unbearable at times you'll think that you're the nicest person ever and you don't deserve this, and you're right you don't because you are a good person

but guess what?

what goes around DOES come back around, whoever treats you unfairly, whoever does you wrong will get it back someday, just wait and watch...

until next time

dreams

hey guys

whats up?
how are you all doing?
good i hope!

now i'm sorry i haven't posted in a while, i dont have an excuse, i respect you enough not to lie and make up some dumb excuse so this is the truth

i didnt blog because i've been either too lazy, uninspired or simply .. away from my computer.

so today i wanna talk about dreams

literal and metaphorical ..

literal dreams first

last night i had a collection of strange dreams, i won't get in the details of them but they did get me thinking about the meanings that lie behind dreams

there are people who believe dreams have a spiritual meaning and that they reflect an upcoming event .. now i dont wanna get into that because it's a bit controversial

and there are other people who believe dreams reflect issues stirring up within us, and this is our body's healthy way of expressing our concerns that we carry with us, even in our sleep

i think that's valid, to an extent though.

because a LOT of dreams don't make sense, so sometimes its just a bunch of things that you don't quite understand and you're left wondering whether it means anything or not

my solution to this is dreams are so interesting, and if you spend all your time caught up in analyzing what they mean you're taking away the fun of their complexity. so dont overthink!

now i wanna talk about metaphorical dreams
the ones you should be metaphorically chasing

and although i'm speaking in metaphors now, following what you want is REAL and you should absolutely not stop yourself from getting what you want

i dont wanna sound too much of a cliche, but lets face it, by getting what you want you'd be making yourself the happiest person you could be, and this in return will affect the way you go about your daily life

if you're happy, you'll be nice to others, if you're nice to others, others will be motivated to be nice to others, it's a happy circle that will not stop unless you act like an annoying person and decide to ruin it for everybody

now realistically speaking, the happiness of others is not a task easily achieved BUT what i'm saying to you here is that you can help make others happy by making yourself happy, so why not! you'd be putting yourself first and lets face it thats what we all tend to do, isnt it?

so go on! chase your dreams and do what makes you happy, and never envy others on what they already have, this will create a totally contrasting effect that no body will appreciate.

so what are you still doing here? LEAVE MY BLOG AND CHASE YOUR DREAMS. GO CHASE CHASE CHASE!


hehe.
but seriously...CHASE

until next time

a month

hey guys

what's up?

how are you all doing? good i hope!

now this post won't be that serious i guess, idk maybe a little, it's just a low-stress post about recent events i guess

now the reason why it's called a month is because on this day last month i found out a new life has been brought into this world, and i was officially an aunt.

so naturally this day is significant to me

and it got me thinking how much can change in one month

then i took that thought to the next level

how much can change in a week .. a day..

a lot can change

and it's not bad change, it's good sometimes and that's what we want don't we?

change is inevitable and how you respond to change shapes who you are

the vacation i've been on caused a huge disruption and CHANGE to my schedule, i mean i had a fixed schedule before the vacation, i'd go to uni, then work then go to work at weekends too, and you know that was the way to go

but now i just have work, without uni and that's fine, i'm enjoying resting i just dont know what to do with all this change, and i know my schedule will be different next semester

so my way out of it this dead-end resting was to start working on that book i told you guys about, i'm really looking forward to it! and i do hope it ends up doing well, i'm not expecting much success to be honest, but it is a delightful, happy story that i have prepared for everyone and it will be a fun read i hope!

so let's go back to the beginning

on the 25th of december, it was christmas and my nephew was born, and i didn't finish finals yet, i wasn't working on any big project

and on the 25th of january, it's not christmas (well duh), my nephew is growing beautifully (el 7imdella) and i'm on the verge of starting a new semester at college, i'm on the verge of a handsome lift at work (not a promotion, we'll call it a lift) and i'm working on a book

the bottom line is, you can plan out your days to include going out and having a good time, which is great and you should be doing that, i do it all the time, but remember if it's all you do, not much will change during a month, and before you know it, a year has gone by and you're still in the same spot you were in a year before... think about that and be productive!


until next time

perspective

hey guys
whats up?
how are you all?
good i hope!!

now what i wanna talk about today is a little thing called perspective and how its a big deal.

now obviously, perspective is a big deal, idk i guess i state the obvious a lot on this thing, but lets face it i dont have any genius ideas about people and the way they behave .. i'm just someone with a particular perspective on perspectives .. do you follow?

now the reason having your own perspective is important is because it sets you apart from other people with different perspectives..

now there are 2 ways in which you can have a perspective:

1) you have a perspective about something and you apply that into your day-to-day life and this makes you a valid, rational human being with a sound train of thought, and this will make me like you a lot.

2) you have a perspective about something and you walk around following other people's perspectives just so no one thinks you're weird. and in this case, get out of my blog.

now this is a bit similar to something i posted about earlier, i think it was on a post called "the real winner" now i won't be repeating myself here but if you have an opinion about something don't conceal it, if someone doesn't like your views why would you want to impress them anyway? science shows us that we get along better with those who share our views, so why chase around people who don't agree with us most the time and pretend we like their views, that's quite frustrating.

pretension in general is frustrating but i already talked about that.

now sometimes we're unsure about our perspectives on different things and thats ok, we can explore different thoughts and different possibilities until we find something we click with, or something that we believe is rational

but the goal is to keep an open mind and not to pretend you believe in something that you clearly don't

i think as you guys may have noticed i'm very frank over the views i have and what i like and what i don't like, so hopefully this doesn't offend anyone, it might offend fake people and to be honest i dont give a damn about these people but nevertheless if you're a fake person but you read my blog i still thank you lol, and hey hopefully you'll stop being fake and we can all be real, and live really/realistically ever after!

until next time

the bigger person

hey guys

how are you all?

now, i wanna talk about "the bigger person" today, we all know who the bigger person is, we're all expected to be the bigger person but now i have a problem with that

i'm not immature ... well i try not to be .. for the most part .. sometimes.. never. lol no i'm kidding

so you know how people always say they respect mature people and stuff like that? yeh well what are the benefits that mature people get, seriously? let me tell you what benefits we get, we get to be the bigger person. the person who has to disregard the petty crap that immature people put us through, the person who has to pretend they're ok with annoying things that constantly happen by the same people who never learn. and those people, they get away with being immature!

so basically, this leads me to think that being the bigger person simply enables the immature person to CONTINUE being immature! and isn't that a problem??

now i understand the importance of the bigger person, we need people who are calm and collected and mature enough to not give unworthy people any attention they clearly don't deserve but at the same time, how will the immaturity and pettiness ever stop??

so right now we're at a stale mate, we don't want to have to put up with immature people but at the same time we don't want to make them feel like their stupidity has attracted our attention

and this my friends is where nourah comes in with a suggestion if you may..

having problems with an immature brat?

no don't act like them (because you're worth something and you shouldn't belittle your value)

no don't confront them (shocker i know)


see the thing is .. most of the time when people are acting in such an immature way, either its naturally who they are (and it's your problem for knowing them and dealing with it for so long) OR and this is what happens in most cases, they know it bugs you and this is their target..

so here's what you do
and i dont know if this is a cliche or something you guys heard before

and it's very difficult to achieve but once you do you'll be the happiest person ever.

DON'T LET IT BOTHER YOU

idk if you guys know this but you can't change ANYTHING about people's behavior, coz people will do whatever the hell they want, regardless of how you may or may not feel about it, so the smart way out is to constantly remind yourself that people's actions, even if directed at YOU, are entirely their choice, their decision, which is in no way altered or affected by YOU.

the only actions and decisions you can control are your own, and so you must learn how to not let people's dumb, stupid actions that may be silly and petty and so on (the list goes on) bother you!

and once you master this, teach me how to do it lol.

until next time

a little perfection goes a long way

(this post goes with a special mention to : Mariam Ashkanani, check out her awesome blog http://feelfreeq8.blogspot.com)

(keeping in mind that the things i say aren't directed at her, so in case i say something mean or anything its not directed at mariam i find her awesome hehe)

(i should stop writing stuff between brackets now)

hey guys!

how are you all?

good i hope

i'm good too, wanna know why? WANNA KNOW WHY?????????? ok i'll tell you why sweethearts, its because i finished finals today! frankly finals don't upset me that much (except a couple of days ago when i broke down at a friend's house, lol that was epic, i literally broke down into tears as i was punching numbers into the calculator)

today what i wanna talk about are first impressions! and how they shape our lives a LOT more than we think.

raise your hand if you had a negative first impression on someone. you guys won't know this because you're not seeing me while i type this but i took a moment and raised my hand before i continued to type lol. anyway. we all do it, we're all victims of it and we're all victimized by it, we can't help but love someone or hate them regardless of whether we actually know them or not.

now
idk how people see me. none of us know how people see us, so its not like we can control it, we cant control others' thoughts, and the thing is what if we're right? like what if we hate on someone and we're actually right to do it? we'll feel empowered, smart and highly intelligent.

but stop now..

what if you're wrong? what if this person you're hating on passionately is actually a nice person? what if they deserve a chance? what if they deserve a hello when you see them passing down the hall?

back when i was in school i sensed that some girls didn't like me, and you know when you're in high school your self-esteem is already down the drain so all you would ever need sometimes is just a smile, that smile would indicate many things .. approval, validation, fulfillment because when you think so little of yourself, it is others' opinions that can lift you up

so now imagine that you're that person who holds it in their power to lift someone up and upbring their spirit, would you really walk away from that just because of an unjustified possibly false first impression thats based on no rationality whatsoever?

think about that everytime you hate on someone!

until next time

nourah is actually very stupid

hey guys

how are you all doing?? good i hope

now i complain a lot and i think you guys picked that up by now but that's cool because i realized i shouldn't complain that much about other people and not pick up my own flaws you know? i'm not perfect and i don't claim to be. so this post is gonna be dedicated to showing you guys how annoying i can be and how i can be the very exact things i hate, just so you guys don't think i'm so stuck up that i can only point out others' flaws and not my own..
alright lets go LIST FORM!

1) i am extremely self-absorbed. the reason why i'm starting with this is because all my blog posts are about me, and what i think, and who i am and who i want to be.. common factor .. "I" so yeh i'm self absorbed and that sucks.

2) i have a very high opinion of my own opinion. like seriously, when i have an opinion about something you can take your opinion and throw it out the window coz chances are thats what i'm gonna do when we have a discussion. unless your opinion is valid of course, but thats unlikely because my opinion is always valid << see what i just did there? (but i do enjoy rational discussions, like if your opinion is interesting and stuff i will take it seriously, dont get me wrong!)

3) i try my best not to argue but when i do, i get really annoying. i mean seriously i get so annoying i think the people in front of me will end up ditching me for life

4) i am incapable of forgiveness. which is wrong, i think i should be capable of it but i'm not, and that doesn't make me strong or anything it makes me idiotic. sometimes even when someone is so dear to me, i can no longer find it in me to forgive them.. and that's sad.

5) i bite my nails... a lot. and its a disgusting habit which will never go away, lord knows i tried, and i've succeeded a couple of times, but it keeps coming back

6) i always assume i'm smart. i know some people think i'm smart, and others don't, i guess we're not quite sure what i am, but i always assume i am and that's extremely condescending. because sometimes there are situations where i don't know what the hell i'm doing, but because i assume i'm smart, i end up all disappointed that i couldn't figure it out, which isn't fair because i don't know everything...

bringing us to our next point.

7) i think i know everything. i'm a know-it-all, someone needs to shut me up.


now that's all i could think of for now, i know i mentioned some pretty annoying things, maybe these are qualities that you absolutely hate about people and i'm sorry if you end up hating me, but these are some of my worst features and i hope you guys can still accept me. i know a lot of the people i know on a personal level read my blog, they probably noticed these flaws in me already (oops) so if i ended up upsetting you because of these things, i truly apologize, and well i hope you still like me (:

until next time

the right actions for the wrong reasons

hey guys

wazzuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup

no i'm kidding
how are you all doing? good i hope! miss you lots!

i have found a new meaning to happiness and i only feel it when i hold my new born nephew.. but more on that later

today i'm in the mood to really dig in about a lot of issues .. now a constant concern i have while i blog is whether i'm gonna end up repeating myself or overlapping other things i talked about before .. i dont want to bore anyone but chances are since you're reading this you're bored as hell

now i'm the kind of person who believes that there are so many differences between things that a lot of us don't seem to understand.. and this is what i wanna start off with, i'll make a list, kay?

1) there's a difference between loving someone, and being unhealthily obsessed with everything they do

2) there's a difference between LIKING someone, and being in love with them

3) there's a difference between admiring someone, and copying every god damn thing they do (get your own identity and if you're a copycat, get off my blog you disgusting twit)

4) there's a difference between being smart and being someone who just voices other people's original ideas

5) there's a difference between being funny and being rude

6) there's a difference between understanding someone and caring about them

7) finally, there's a difference between paying attention and listening

now the reason i felt the need to iron out these details and tell you guys about these things is because a lot of us don't realize half the things we do and why we do them

and i'm no better than any of you, in fact i'm probably the worst person alive but thats just a result of my highly unresolved self-esteem issues which we will not talk about.

anywayyyy, i won't explain each one in detail because if at least one of those points on that list didn't make you remember that one time where you didn't really know what i'm talking about, then you're a dumb idiot and you shouldn't be on my blog either

(low threshold for idiots over here).

moving right along

i'm not arrogant, i'm not condescending but i respect people who are real with themselves and if you wanna pretend you're some perfect being then piss off, we're all flawed god damn it and the sooner you realize it the better.

also i'm not aggressive wallah i'm nice, bas i hate people who are in a constant state of denial.

also i wanna talk about moody people

what's up with moody people??

like idk if i'm moody or not, i have mood swings i guess, i have those days where i'm not really up to doing anything but i'm still nice you know, like i still talk to the people i like talking to

but for some reason a lot of people don't seem to have that belief anymore
i'm moody so i'll only talk to you when i feel like it

um excuse me? the day god turns me into a toy for you to pick up whenever you god damn want to, that's when you're allowed to think like that.

what else what else what else

finals are soon.

and that's all i'm going to say about THAT topic haha. i've been thinking about the future a lot .. what's gonna happen.. where am i gonna go .. and life changes so fast! you can never predict anything because nothing is ever fixed, and nothing is ever stable, regardless of how much we want it to be

you know what i want? i wanna be big someday .. and i know we all want that, i know we all wanna get rich and have the flashy cars and the fancy mansions but see .. i believe in going the extra mile i believe that you need to be aware of everything around you and when god grants you endless success and a lifetime of glory, flaunting it is not the answer believe me ..

we all like nice things and there are things i want that are unreasonable but at the end of the day.. life is not about the things you're capable of buying.

i was also gonna talk about one more thing but i completely forgot ..

well i remembered something else but maybe it'll come to me while i tell you guys this piece of news.

i have decided to officially work on a book. now for those of you who know me, you'll know that i already wrote a book before but i only made 5 copies and it wasn't publicly distributed due to its extremely personal content, but it was quite an interesting story but what i'm gonna write will be different, and i hope no one asks any questions about my ideas because guess what sweethearts, i ain't got any! like seriously i'm hoping inspiration will hit me during the holidays.

sadly .. i'm no longer inspired.. sometimes i ask myself .. where did i go?

that's all i have to say for today .. idk if you guys were expecting more, i think i rambled on way more than i should have

love you all for reading this..seriously you guys are my fuel.

thank you <3

until next time

thank you

hey guys

how are you all??

good i hope

yes i blogged 2 days ago but sometimes i've got things i wanna say.. but its a new year and i wanna begin it with wishing you all a happy new year and i just wanna do a quick recap over 2011. kay?

lets go, i'm creating a list of thank yous that i would like to express..

1) thank you to everyone that made me smile in 2011, except the fake smiles .. yeh i don't like those

2) thank you to everyone that promised me they'd stay .. and they actually did

3)thank you to everyone who decided to do something mean to me because you made me learn something new about how bitchy people can be

4) thank you to everyone who made me question my values because it is you who reminded me that everything changes

5) thank you to everyone who thought about me during the year of 2011, it is your thoughts that keep me alive in your memory and that is a huge consolation for me


idk if i have anything more i'd like say regarding this matter .. 2011 was without a doubt one of the most interesting years i've ever had .. and i feel like 2012 will be just as interesting

here's to new beginnings

and finally

until next time