so my birthday is soon

hey guys how are you all doing?
so this post is self-explanatory i'm gonna be talking about my upcoming birthday! i love my birthday it always feels special because i love getting older but i also hate it..i mean i'm turning 19 and that's cool BUT i hate that i'm getting closer to turning 20, i mean seriously i am nothing like most 20 year-olds, a7es i'm too immature to be 20 and it's just weird man it's just weird! i'm finding it hard to come up with things to say right now idk why but anyway i'm not ready to be 20 and i won't have to worry about that for another year but let's face it, time is running faster than the wildest horses out there..it seemed like my 18th birthday was yesterday..my 18th birthday was amazing, i know this birthday will be different but hopefully just as good..there's something i REALLY want, one of them is james blunt but the other thing is like top secret and i'm kinda convinced it won't happen but my god if it does, i will be so happy.
until next time

so here are my views on music

hey guys, how are you all doing?
so i'm gonna talk about music in this post because i think music is an important part in each our lives and i noticed there's always a heated debate about good music and bad music..let me be clear about one thing THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS BAD MUSIC, there's such a thing as music we may not like but to some people it can be good, now this doesn't mean you're not entitled to say a song is bad, because you're entitled to do whatever dude seriously, BUT the problem is when you say it's bad and you're convinced other people should think it's bad too, and that's just wrong what the hell ya3nee? for example, i'm one of the many people who think rebecca black's friday isn't the best song out there, but if YOU like it good for you! a song isn't strictly bad because i say so, who am i to make that decision? now here's my opinion about what i think a good song should have..a good song should be able to touch you in a way, like i know you're thinking how can a dance/party song touch me? those can be touching too because when i say touch you i mean it has to move something inside of you, a dance/party song may make you want to get up and dance and be happy, that's touching you in a way..now i'm going to take a moment and tell you about an artist i respect, value and adore..some of you who know me and are reading this probably can guess who i'm going to talk about..james blunt. where do i begin? james blunt is the very reason i listen to music, now that i think about it..he has that voice, that voice that can capture you immediately and hold on to you till his song is over, and he'll leave you wanting to hear more, he takes me on a ride with him and my god he is beautiful...i've seen some videos of him performing live and i swear to you, he sings with such depth and intensity i can't help but fall in love with him..am i love in with james blunt? yes i am. because he's everything i love, he's sensitive, poetic and charming..i know you're thinking so you like softies and no he's not a softie i just respect a man who can openly express his feelings..i also think it should be more socially acceptable for a man to enjoy james blunt's music without being thought of as a softie as well, because james blunt's songs carry an important message about love, hope, despair and truth.
don't get me wrong there are other AMAZING artists out there, but i feel connected to james blunt the most..which artists do you feel connected to and why? if you have me on twitter just give me a mention or a DM, and if you don't have me on twitter you can follow me if you like (@nourah_o) or you can reply here..so yeh. until next time

so i'm looking for beauty

hey guys
how are you? i didn't blog yesterday although i doubt anyone noticed, but anyhow i think i was trying to make a statement. whatever! moving on. so the title of this blog may seem a little strange, i'm in this weird mood right now i guess, i'm not sad or emo or anything REALLY i'm a happy person, most of the time and i am moved by beautiful things, if you know me well enough then you'll know how my face gets when a beautiful song comes on, or when i'm looking at a beautiful piece of art, or when i just finished reading an amazing book, i feel like we live in such a fast-paced world that no one really stops and absorbs the beautiful things in life and that's really a problem, because it is these beautiful things that add to our happiness, and as happier individuals we can live a better life..i look for beauty in everything i do, i look for success in every project i take and i push myself to the limit whenever i give my word to someone, you can argue and say some investments are risky and you're DAMN right they are, but if you don't win, you acquire a new lesson and a new experience, and some of that will taste bitter but believe you me it is all worth it..i don't have anything else to say right now i'm actually really hungry, so i'm gonna go look for beauty in the kitchen haha! until next time.

so i suck with money

hey guys, how are you all?
today started off really well, i did a lot of shopping and i had a good time with my mum, but then we went to the bank to deposit some money in my bank account, and the atm machine had this deposit service and i put the money in, and when i finished, i clicked back and then it said that the transaction was void! so at first i was like ok let's see how much i have in my account, and then it showed me my original bank balance even though i deposited a large amount of money so it should be more! now this is my mum's money so i freaked out because i didn't want to make it seem like i'm irresponsible, luckily god blessed me with an amazing, understanding mum and she calmed me down and contacted the bank, they said they'll contact the branch and have the money transferred to my account by tomorrow, i still feel a little shaky because i hate it when i make mistakes and i know you're thinking nourah everyone makes mistakes, but i don't like to make mistakes because i like to think i'm a smart person and yes i know smart people make mistakes but smart people don't make stupid mistakes and i felt really stupid today, idk..anyway until next time

so some people are a lost cause

hey guys
how's everybody doing? i realised that i start rambling on about my day and my views and i don't really ask the politest question in the english language "how are you?" and yeh i don't have thousands of people reading this but i know the number of views i get and if you're reading this now, i genuinely want to know how you're doing, so just answer me through your computer screen or something, although someone passing by may think you're crazy because you're talking to a computer but then you can tell them about my blog and i'll become a millionaire. ok maybe not a millionaire. anyway! now back to what i had plans to discuss, some people are a lost cause, now that sounds so cynical and so negative and so mean but the reality is people, IT'S TRUE. some people ARE a lost cause and we shouldn't waste our time, and the reality is i know that things like that are really easy to say but hard to execute but just think about it, you can't be any more emotional than i am, seriously i'm like the most emotional person ever and i cry over everything but the thing is while i do have a strong connection with my feelings i also compensate that by having a strong connection with what's actually happening around me, for example sometimes a girl can be crazily in love with someone and he doesn't acknowledge her existence, and that's ok because let's face it all girls go through that at some point, and yeh it's totally ok to be upset about that because it's hurtful to know that someone that you find perfect for yourself doesn't agree with you, but at the same time, really think about it. awesome people exist everywhere, and i'm pretty sure that every single girl out there who faced rejection DOES have some awesome qualities, so why do you upset yourself when in reality that guy who doesn't know how awesome you are is the one who should be upset because he doesn't get to have YOUR awesome presence in his life. i really feel upset when girls around me feel undervalued by guys especially, because the reality is we all have and WILL face rejection but please, it does not make you a lesser person and you shouldn't feel like you're unworthy, you are beautiful and that guy is probably just one of those people who happens to be a lost cause. some of you may be thinking right now ok nourah, who is this lost cause that made you come up with all of this? and the answer is almost every single douche and moron i've met, girls and guys, seriously i came across hundreds of assholes and i'm positive that more are coming along, but my attitude towards all these assholes stays the same, they're all lost causes and i won't change myself or upset myself over people who don't value me for me, because if you know me, then you'll know that i'm pretty damn valuable. and no i'm not arrogant, it's the truth, and you're valuable too, remember that.
until next time.

so i used the boys bathroom today

hey guys
before i start giving you the details of my day, i'll just skip to the part that explains the title of this post, yes i did use the boys bathroom, no i am not used to doing such a thing, i was at the restaurant and i really needed the bathroom and girls (as always) take ages in the bathroom as they create a whole new look for themselves in there, and frankly i couldn't wait so i used the boys room and to be honest it wasn't even that different from the girl's bathroom, the only difference was the sign on the door and the looks i got when i left it, anyway i don't care i know i did the right thing. so now that that's out of the way, let me tell you about the rest of my day, i had college from 8 to 5, completed a lot of shit, and then i went to abu-alhassaniya for my last day with nahla before she leaves to dublin *sound of heart breaking* we had a great time and we must have talked about a thousand different things..one of the things was how i think that everything in life depends on your attitude and your attitude ALONE, circumstances and unexpected events have nothing to do with how things go in life, it all depends on how your attitude is towards all of this. for example i know someone, and i have a particular attitude towards that person, but i know that their attitude towards me is different, so there's no way in hell i'm gonna tell them what i really want to treat them like so i just give as i receive..the thing about that though is that if we only give just as much as we receive, there will be no room for good in life, i mean things like acts of kindness, smiles to strangers and helping the less fortunate...they don't involve giving as much as receiving because we received nothing from these acts, or these strangers or the less fortunate, but we gave..and that's what makes us pure. am i a giver? that's a hard question to be honest, i like to be a giver but sometimes it's hard to overcome some of the crappy things a lot of people put me through, but i will never lose faith in humanity, there are good people out there, there is happiness and most importantly there will always be love.
until next time.

so this is gonna be a quick post

hey guys
i'm like totally tired but i thought i had to update you all before i went to bed and got ready for a new day in my exciting *yawn* life, anyway today i didn't have college which is fine by me since this week raped me, and i had lunch at an awesome restaurant, you may have heard of it it's called mais al ghanim..then i went out with some friends and i did something kinda wild and out there, but no matter what i'm not gonna say what it is here, i hope this doesn't disappoint anyone, but really i can't say, all i can tell you is that it has been done 3 times, and it's crazy and stupid and a bit out there but what's life without a little wildness right? and if you know me personally and i haven't already told you what this thing is then please don't come and ask me because chances are if i didn't tell you by now, i wasn't planning to in the first place. anyway enough on that, i have a long day of college awaiting me tomorrow and that's it for now i guess. until next time

so today was long but i liked it

hey guys
i'm in this elevated, floating mood right now. i'm not high or anything but i feel like i'm above grounds, idk why though, maybe it's because i've been exhausted all day and i'm gonna get some rest soon, i had a somewhat productive day, it's been good. naturally like any other day many thoughts came in and out, new thoughts were born, and older thoughts were restored..that's the thing, thoughts never go away, they just hibernate or develop. i spent most of my day at uni which works for me kinda since i like it there, but towards the end it got too tiring, anyway..wow it's weird i can't think of much things to say, is it because i'm tired? maybe. there's something about songs with the beautiful sound of a piano that always gets to me, i myself am a pianist but not an accomplished one, i grew up doing it but i haven't picked it up in a while, why did i pick piano? i don't feel i picked it, i feel that it picked me..is that weird? idk i feel like it sent out this vibe that pulled me to it, it can be jazzy and it can be soothing, it can be dark and it can be smooth, it can create opposing, contrasting reactions to different situations and that sort of reminds me of me, and i know you're thinking so nourah you're a walking contradiction? no i'm not, i'm totally straightforward but when i come to think of it, no person has a fixed view on everything it's like when you look at a person's views politically, it's really difficult to find someone who's conservative or liberal about EVERYTHING, for example there are things i believe we should be conservative about like crime and the applying of law, and then there are things we should be liberal about like people's freedom to expression and their rights, so i guess what i'm saying is that sometimes it's ok to have opinions about yourself that are kinda opposite in nature because that's what creates a beautiful human being, being different and allowing yourself to express that difference proudly, and always be proud of who you are and never try to shape your opinion just to agree with everybody else's, that's weak and unwelcomed by me..but at the end of the day my opinion towards other people's actions that don't explicitly or implicitly affect me is "do whatever you want"
that's enough for now...until next time.

so i made a new friend today

hey guys
so i arrived home a while ago, today was a pretty interesting day, i had uni in the morning, then i had lunch at le notre then i went to the city to run an errand and then i spent the rest of the day at abu-alhassaniya with a close friend, we tried out nestle toll house then we roamed around and hung out at the beach, we started playing at the swings and this little girl who couldn't have been more than 1 or 2 years old came to me and she reached out her arms, so i took her and sat her on my lap and started swinging her with me, she wouldn't stop smiling at me i felt so loved! her name is lulwa but i called her lulu hehe, then when we were about to leave i went to say bye to her and her mum was there with her so i introduced myself to the mum and her mum was like "ooh you made a new friend today!" and that's when i really smiled, because that little girl was just so cute and adorable, this is what i love the most about children, how spontaneous and trusting they are of other people, it really made my day seeing the smile on that little girl's face, i uploaded a picture of me and her on my twitter page, so if you're THAT curious you can go check it out, man that little girl was adorable, hehe i'm gonna be smiling about this for a while now, anyway this is enough for now..until next time.

so this post is for girls mainly

hey guys, or girls actually.
anyway guys is a common term in my books but i am focusing this post on girls, i don't get a lot of readers on this thing but i do know i get SOME, and i hope that girls get a chance to read this because i have a very important message i wanna deliver to you all..now i've been in different situations around different people and i understand the needs that every girl has, because i too have them, i'm just another girl really. and believe me girls, i am the most emotional person you'll ever meet, i wasn't like this before but now i'm so freakin sensitive man throw a paper at me and i'll break, i cry easily and i wear my heart on my sleeve basically, and i don't think it's a weakness, bel 3aks i'm proud of the ability to express my feelings, and what i want all of you girls to consider is the following:
1) no person, ESPECIALLY A GUY, is worth you changing yourself for.
2) don't give out too many second chances, they'll just not respect you and treat you even worse than they did before
3) when you love someone (and i'm talking all kinds of love, friend love, sister\brother love, moo bas love love, i believe there's more to life than just that kind of love) love them in every possible way you can.

why am i directing this message to girls only? i'll tell you why. i see a lot of girls around me who talk about how a lot of people hurt them and you know i'm one of those girls, and the reason any of us feel upset over a situation like this is because we feel that we must have did something wrong for a person to treat us and respond this way, and it's girls who are more fragile about this issue because naturally, we're the more sensitive ones, but what i discovered was that if i am who i am, if i draw the right amount of line between the number of times i'll let you screw me over and the number of times you DID screw me over, and if i KNOW i gave you all the love i have (again whether you're a friend, cousin, sibling whatever) then what MORE can i do? seriously, ask yourself this question, whenever you're in a problem with someone, what MORE can you do that you haven't already done? and if you did hold back from giving something you could have given earlier, then yes you should feel responsible and you can talk to the person and hopefully everything will work out, but ask yourself this, what if you gave it everything you could yet you still ended up getting screwed over? well, in that case the lesson here is "that's life"..so think about that if you can and i do hope this message spreads.
until next time

so today was my first day

hey guys
so i'm back to college! and it felt good to be back, it was exhausting i'll admit but i absolutely love having a fixed routine back in my life, seriously i love it, love it love it love it! the summer felt too chaotic and i've been lifeless for a while now and i'm not ashamed to admit it, i've been searching and searching for different opportunities and now is the time when things are turning around for me, i actually feel maturer this year..it's a nice feeling to have, i'm generally happy right now and i hope the semester passes by smoothly, i'm writing this while listening to james blunt, did i mention he's my favourite artist ever? i guess it's the sincerity in his tone of voice that pulls me the most, i mean he always sounds genuine in every song he sings, two of my all-time favourite songs are by him. speaking of which, do you guys wanna know my all-time favourite songs? i'll list them but they won't be in order, mosta7eel i can order them it's way too hard, if you're reading this and you're looking for some good music to listen to, in my opinion this is what i think:
1) 1973-James Blunt
2) Same mistake-James Blunt
3) Swans- Unkle Bob
4) Fix you- Coldplay

there are a lot more songs that move me and i'll probably mention these songs more often in my next blogs since they all affect me in different ways but i think that's enough for now, no? until next time.

so it's a new day

hey guys
so its 10:44 am where i am and i just woke up, i kinda feel a bit helpless idk why, who cares, anyway i learnt to put up with myself. i start college tomorrow, i'll try to post something up here before i do but it'll be really early in the morning so i don't know if i'll remember or not. this morning i'm thinking about one particular thing, how almost strangers leave an impact on our lives. isn't it funny how people you barely know can affect you so much without knowing it? maybe it's just me but i believe the presence of every individual in my life has a meaning to it, for example a former friend may have been brought into my life to teach me a lesson about how bad friends are like, which is why they're a former friend now. or a meaningless quick infatuation may be brought into my head just to remind me that i'm still a teen at heart. i'm gonna be 19 soon, my last teenage year, it sure feels weird. i was never one of those all-high teen girl that everyone wanted to be like, i was the awkward one with the bad hair and pimples and it's ok i never really felt that i hated that about me, i don't set unrealistic expectations for myself, i think that this is an important phase i must go through and i'm glad i did the way i did, the thing that scares me though is the part that comes after, ever since i was 13 all i knew who to be was a teenager, and now after i step out of 19 i feel like it's a completely new chapter in my life. maybe i'm making a big deal about things like i usually do, but the idea of being 20 really scares me. i mean i always thought that a person who is 20 is like really old (i know that's childish of me to think but whatever it's how i think) and like, really mature you know? but i don't feel old, i am mature yes but there never was an age restriction on maturity. anyway i won't have to worry about being 20 for another year, so that's enough for now. until next time.

so i'm a bit of a wreck

hey guys
so lately something weird has been happening to me, now i'm not a depressed person or like one of those drama queens who make a huge fuss about everything, i'm normal, good things make me happy and bad things make me sad, i'm a little overly sensitive and i do express my emotions in a blatant way but i try not to be melodramatic, but lately it feels like i'm reacting to everything that's happening around me in a really exaggerated way. the smallest things are upsetting me, well some of them aren't small but they're way too personal to be mentioned here, i hope this doesn't disappoint the thousands of readers i get on this page, anyway, idk man, maybe it's one of those days but it's been going on for a while, i wish things were easier, i wish a person can actually control how they feel, although that does have its disadvantages, a huge part of life's magic and beauty comes from our inability to control how we feel about different people and situations, but it goes both ways right? you have to get the bad to get the good and vice versa...i just feel like a lot of the bad has been going around in my head, seriously my head actually hurts right now, i need a break, i haven't been on a legitimate vacation in soooooo long, i haven't cleared my head since god knows when, no wonder i've been feeling this way, i need to breathe and wow this is a pretty terrible time to realize this since i'm starting college on sunday, how smart of me, man yeh ok whatever i'll just suck it up like i've been doing for the past years, and maybe this won't be an issue once i'm back in college, maybe a distraction is what i need, and college is definitely a huge distraction. until next time

so i'm tired

hey guys
so i just got back home from the avenues, if you're not from kuwait and you're reading this (which i highly doubt) the avenues is this huge mall that everyone goes to here, i like it a lot. anyway, i don't have any deep train of thoughts that i wanna share like i did yesterday, but i'm pretty tired from my day, it was productive though, i had a successful morning, thankfully and i had a great evening out. some people here can be really rude though, it annoys me when two perfectly decent girls are walking and they keep getting harassed, seriously what's that about? it makes me uncomfortable to know that anyone can jump at me any second, it's so rude and vulgar and i wish some people would behave in a more civilized manner. anyway, what else? umm let's see, it was a good day generally, i'm glad i get tomorrow off though, i've been running around the city and university all week long finishing up some shit, all of it will clear up in the next couple of days when i announce my big news (to the millions of people reading this blog..haha this is sad) and that's all i have to say for now, i'm pretty tired, and that's the explanation behind the title of this post. until next time

so i constantly think

hey guys
so doesn't it bug you when all you can do is sit around and think about the same things, same people, same mistakes...idk i'm just one of those people who lingers on every thought out there and that's really a problem for me because sometimes i can't sleep because of it, and sometimes my feelings are affected by my on-going thoughts that are created by some of my deluded feelings, i basically upset myself over nothing sometimes, and it's not because i choose to it's just how i function. right now i'm thinking about the changes that my life is gonna undergo in this period, i'm gonna announce some big news later on but fundamentally my life is in a huge transition phase right now and that won't stop, i'm not afraid of change but i do worry about my response to it, i can never predict if i'll be able to handle something gracefully, or handle it like a complete mess. also i keep thinking about my future and the things i want. i'm the kind of girl who sees herself as a headstrong individual with a passion to work and grow, and i convinced myself that that's all i need, which was ok for a while until i realised i was in a huge state of denial. i don't wanna be fulfilled academically and professionally only, i want to be fulfilled emotionally too, i want to experience something deep, i want a real genuine connection with everyone around me and no amount of work or success can negate that. i guess i worry because whenever you bring people in any equation, it'll always have an element of hurt or disappointment in it and i handle these things in a tough way, i don't know, i'm stronger than i used to be but deep down i'm just a big softie. something else worries me, to some this is the greatest thing ever but to me it's terribly frightening, i cannot possibly predict anything about my future, and obviously i'm no psychic but i would like some kind of hint of where i'm going to be and what my plans are, i like making plans, but it feels like after college i'll just sit around and play with these never-ending ideas in my head, and depending on which one i choose, i'm giving up another potentially life-changing possibility. man i need to stop thinking about these things..i need to but i doubt i will, anyway i rambled on enough for now. until next time

so i start next week

hey
so i finished the summer course a couple of days ago and it went really well el 7imdella, i start my third year of college on sunday enshalla, i hope the semester passes by smoothly, something tells me time will go even faster in this semester idk why though, maybe because i'm creating this new policy, i will always keep myself busy and put my time to good use, so yeh, as the summer vacation is about to end and for many it already ended, i hope you all had a great summer and i hope you're all ready for the challenges of the new year, good luck! until next time

so i should blog

alright so i'm nourah, i'm almost 19, i'm a university student and i'm generally nice. i'm very chatty so there's a chance no one will actually follow this blog but whoever reads this, reads this! i'm currently in the middle of a summer course at uni, and this week is sort of the last week and i'm completely dreading it, not because i like the summer course in any way, but because after the last week comes the final, which is something i'm not looking forward to, anyway it'll be done and over with before i know it, i recently got my driver's license but i'm still in the process of ironing out my driving and making sure i'm in a good place, andddd oh ok i recently started watching how i met your mother, barney stinson blogs, so that's kinda why i'm into this thing now haha, so lame of me right? anyway i think its an awesome show... what else? OH i'm from kuwait! i forgot to mention that, i'm from kuwait and i absolutely love kuwait, whenever i travel i get so homesick and i think about the things i'd do if i was in kuwait, i love the places, i love the sense of familiarity and i just love it here man, alright i think i'll stop here...until next time! (that's going to be my catch phrase, original no?)